Friday, March 12, 2010

We be a little stressed

We in the flyboy house are a bit stressed out.

All of us.

{Well I'm not sure how stressed out a 5 year old and a 3 year old can be but flyboy and I are and well, since we're the two biggest people in the house and contribute the most, quite frankly, just having the two of us stressed out qualifies as the whole house.}

I lost my military id for a bit today in the car and had a total breakdown. I called flyboy and I'm not quite sure what I thought he could do for me but I unleashed. Stress I tell ya.

Speaking of flyboy, poor flyboy. I feel for him at work. Ever have one of those weeks where the shit hits the fan and then the next day more shit hits the fan? And then the next day and the next day and the next day, you guessed it.... more shit hitting the fan.

Yeah he's had one of those weeks. Only his week started last week since he worked thru the weekend its just all blurred together.

When I talk to him on the phone during the day or when he walks thru the door evening I can hear it in his voice and see it in his body that he's just dragging.

And little dash-3. My sweet boy. Something is just a little off and we just don't know what. The doctor was concerned about his weight at his six month appt and he was supposed to go back in four weeks for a follow up, we ended up going back today because I just didn't want to wait four more weeks.

Something is off. My maternal radar was going ape shit crazy.

They recorded his weight wrong at the last visit, so while the doctor thought he was in the 5th percentile it turns out he isn't at all on the growth chart.

Well shit.

Because of that and the fact that he hasn't gained enough weight in the past 11 days the doctor feels that something is amiss, failure to thrive.

Excuse me, what was that?

Failure to thrive? Well double shit.

My bright eyed, fuzzy headed baby boy? {And its not a matter of supplementing with formula or having him nurse more.Please don't suggest that I might just snap.}

As a mom, as a parent, to have questions about your child's health is hell.

Lots of test have been ordered, hopefully after their done well have more of an idea what's going on. It could be something, it could be nothing. My vote, my prayers, are for the latter.

So you can see, the flyboys are a bit stressed. And tired.

Cause along with the big stuff you have the little stuff, potty training dash 2 who likes to wait until 8pm to poop, a preschooler who doesn't want to go to preschool, little boys who decided to play in fertilizer, stuffed animals who are apparently biting and need me to lecture them, a house to clean, laundry that seems to be procreating like bunnies, taking three kids to the doctors, then the px, then the commissary {sigh} and I know there is more.

Life is stressful. Par for course. Our stress compared to others is nothing. But right now its a weight on our shoulders. It's not unbearable its just nagging.

As stressed out as I am, as worried as I am, as tired as I am, I still feel lucky.

But I do feel stressed.

23 comments:

  1. ((hugs))

    i'm sure dash3 is going to be ok, i'm sure. he could just be a little guy. its just scary when noone knows for sure, i know. lots of prayers for you guys.

    sometimes, it doesn't rain, it pours cats and dogs... i'm sorry :(

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  2. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you find out what is happening with dash3 soon. Could it have something to do with the nard surgery? Or the sleeping? I dunno.

    Paul had one of those weeks this week too. I think we should have a redo of this week.

    And hugs to you, my dear.

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear about Dash-3. I can only imagine how nerve wracking it must be not to know what's going on with your baby... you guys are in my thoughts and prayers!

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  4. Honestly, when I saw that the doc said "failure to thrive" I couldn't even imagine how that must have made you feel. Awful, I am guessing. I really hope they are about to figure out what is going on with Dash 3 in a hurry!

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  5. Oh you poor thing! I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug! I'm sure dash-3 will be just fine. Keep us up to date and try to stay positive.

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  6. You are in my prayers. I hope you get some more concrete answers concerning his health soon.

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  7. I so wish I could give you real live hug and tell you everything is going to be just fine. We are stressed in this house also. I am going to go with that your little man is just going to be small. I have 1 out of 4 that is just that, tiny. He is almost 3 (will be next month) and weighs 25 lbs. Medical issues suck but when it is your child they seem to suck even more. Just take one day at a time, one appt. at a time. You will see everything start to fall in place.

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  8. It's not "nothing" when it's your stress, hon! Never apologize for worrying about your kids. (Not that you did, but still...it's your job, right?) Praying with you, that everything comes back clear.

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  9. Lots of prayers being sent for little Dash's health and Mr and Mrs sanity from CA!

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  10. Hang in there and hugs!!!!

    A friend of mine had a baby who was failure to thrive and she did everything you can think of. I'm going off the top of my head so I could be wrong but I want to say it was due to him having a type of allergy. Let me try and get in touch with her and see if she has info for you. I DO know that her son is TOTALLY fine and kicking her ass as little boys do =) So do NOT beat yourself up over this!!! I forbid you to! >:(

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  11. Well I'd be stressed too! If it makes you feel better ( probably not but I can try) my sister in law fell off the chart at 3 months and didn't get back on for a long time. And she's pretty darn normal and smart now (Tabitha in my comments)

    anywho...hope you get some kind of answer and the stress level goes down.

    I'll plant some flowers for you! ;)

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  12. When it rains it pours :( Lots of support and a huge ((HUG)) from here. I hope that you will get some answers, and quickly!

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  13. Im sorry that everything has gone wrong all at the same time, I know the feeling. I will be saying a prayer for y'all.

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  14. I feel for you. And I hope Dash-3 is just fine and the universe starts smiling on you really soon. Hang in there :)

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  15. Praying for you all ... I know the feeling of dealing with a Mr. stressed at work. Hoping that it all turns out to be nothing with Dash-3 ... he is in my prayers.

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  16. You are all in my prayers! Just remember... no rain, no rainbow! There will be a bright side again, soon! I promise! I cannot imagine how you must feel about Dash-3 since I don't have that motherly bond... but I do know that those are some pretty dreaded words to hear. I know you are a good mother, so don't beat yourself up over this. I hope you get some solid answers soon and it that all will be well in the Flyboy house again.

    It could be as simple as an allergy or intolerance to food, especially considering the food allergies in the flyboy house! Keep your chin up and look for the rainbow!

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  17. I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it! I swear that third child just throws life into chaos for the first year (at least that's how it was for us here). It's hard to catch your breath and even small stuff (like the ID) makes you feel kinda crazy.

    I'll say a prayer for Dash-3. Hopefully, it will be nothing and he's just little. Vivi's always been little too. She didn't walk till 15 mts and our Dr. was trying to convince us early intervention specialists were needed, then she just got up and did it one day like it was nothin'. They're all different and grow and develop at their own schedules...Hope it's all sorted out for you soon!

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  18. I'm saying lots of prayers for Dash-3, you, and flyboy! Never apologize for being worried about your motherly instincts, they are there for a reason. And just watch in the next month he will sprout like a weed and be 20 something pounds.

    Good luck with the other boys too, if I lived closer I would offer to take them off your hands for a bit.

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  19. Wow, what a craptastic week. The youngest of my three sons was diagnosed with Failure To Thrive as an infant and he is now a 6'2" Sailor who is smarter than the rest of us put together. Here's hoping that your little guy is just a peanut but if you find out otherwise, I would be happy to share our experience with you.

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  20. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you that everything comes back A OK for Dash 3.

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  21. You all need a break.

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you. If you want to talk, call me.

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  22. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way...

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  23. ((HUGS)) I hope you have answers soon.

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